k... this entry will be full of angry....

know why.. coz.. i am pissed off..

if u are the kind of person tt dont really tell a person where u are going.. who are u with.. where are u now.. then i think u hav no rights of asking ppl thoese questions i stated above!!

and...for thoese who hav know mi.. i can be a very evry happy ,crappy, lame, funn... whatever u can think of ....but... ppl have their limits too...

to my sec sch and poly friends whom hav know mi long enough.. i dont flare up for no reasons...

if thoese ppl who dont know mi long enough.. then u hav no rights to jude abt mi k??

u can joke with mi any things u wan... i wont flare up...

but... it has to hav a limit !!... and i think tt everyone know~~..coz.. everyone got their limits...

and this time round.. i hav really reach my limits... anyone.. who bring up this matter..thoese who know.. good.. dont know too bad.. coz.. i dont wanan write it here... u knw get it from mi.. and i dont think u wish to see the other side of mi... u will regret it...

i am really.. damn damn irritated .... its really getting and pissing mi off.. day by day... i already tried not to be borther abt it.. but.. u guys keep saying and saying.. i can really say 'F' off lor...

i susper pissed...

i dont care.. u wanna say i am a small gas .. whatever shit.. carry one...

coz.. I DONT CARE how u view mi... i know myself best.. and if u think i am wrong.. then.. nvm.. i still hav my sec sch friend to know and view mi better then u guys do... k~~..coz.. they know mi long enough~.. then u guys do..

piss.. yan!!!

no blessings

yup... all i can say.. i am a free bird now.. or i can say .. i am joining the working life already ...

last day working at ward 76, we bought food for all the staff and sisters and House officers...

took pic w all the staff i work w~~

i need to thankz alot of ppl~~  :)

Nasri, Ismail , Ma zz , Zahrin, Jie ying , wen jing , SAmamta , Yip , Xercis , nisa , roshida , sister quek , sister nor, sister annie, Aziz , NOrma , thana , Lisa , haz,

these ppl .. reallu make my days in ward 76 happy :)

Nasri : Thankz for teaching mi lots and lots of stuff :)...

ismail : My preceptor.. LOLX... thankz for teaching mi.. and letting mi pass. Muhaha..

Ma zz : sorry if i;ve cause u trouble at work.. muhaha.. and stop rushing mi in doing things.~~ LOLX...thankz for teaching mi stuff too..

Zahrin : ehh.. u're strict.. but u reall teaches us lots of things too.. :) thankz~

wen jing : :) u are always cute .. LOLX... miss wokring w u ~~:)

xercis : haha... stop asking mi to take cases.. LOLx.. i miss joking w u~~

nisa: .. eat eat eat ... keep eating and wont fat~~ Muhaha..wheres my outing..!!

rosida : hope u like yr bday celebration~~ :) .. also someone.. who answer my questions whenever i am in doubt.. :)

jie ying : .. hahhaa..play games together yah? LOLX~~..

k la..jus really going to miss these ppl~~

pic... ehh think will upload soon.. if not.. go my friendster see.. muhahaha..

these 3 months working there.. really.. its like already wokring there~~

and now.. left the np students working there.~~

june and ah wen.. miss mi ?? LOLx..

i am the gal who always  beat their butts.. whenever i walk pass them.. haha.. and they miss mi beating their butt.. LOLX~~

i also goanna miss thoese sat and sun tt we work together.. then all gatehr at the nurses counter... talking crap stuff. and lameing together~~..

going to the prep rm.. and poking each other's hand... jus to get the hand of how IV plug is being inserted~

Thankz to Ma zz who taught us tt~~ LOLX

miss talking crap in the tea rm... miss all the laugther~~.. :)

Guess.. i wont be going back to tt ward.. for my working days in SGH.. coz.. i dont think i stand a chance going back there.. dont know why.. i really hope going back there.. but... the feeling jus tell mi i wont get back there though..

so will miss u guys~~ :) really take good caRE~~~

and i awaits.. NISA yr outing aR~~ LOLX~~..

kk.. miss them lots lots   ~~~ :)

yuppie.. i know i haven been blogging~~.. muhahaa.. coz.. lazy.. and.. i've been counting down the days...

its onli 6 days left~~ yeah~~.. and i will be going back sch..

i really miss sch... i miss vonvon , yuyu , shawny and shahrul badly...

i miss th craps we talk in sch everyday .. miss the sleeping outside LTK ... and everything... :)

its been 3 months already.. ARGH~~~~...

k... this week has been a really busy week for mi at work... for the past 3 days... have been eating onli 1 meal a day... coz was super busy ...

some times.. u know things jus doesnt go how it goes.. and makes mi panic...

and when i panic.. the staff will also panic.. LOLx.. and will say " realx realx"... when... they themself.. is panic.. LOLX~~

6 days left to be in this ward 76... i dont know if i should be happy or i should be sad?? LOLx... the staff here are really nice~~ :) ..

and.. i will be working 6 days straight.. though.. LOLX~~.. till next fri... sian.. but should be okay ba~~

wokring on sat and sun... :).. my last sat and sun working.. lolx... its fun to work on sat and sun.. depending on who yah working w... actually..

and.. i've jus finish my night shift.. k.. notting much .. i jus dont know why .. my 1st night.. will always be hell of busy.. and the last night will always be very free...

my last nght shift... i finish all my report writing at 11pm... and .. i sit there and talk crap w my preceptor.. for few hours.. and i mean really FEW hours.. jus sitting there talking cRAP... and.. telling all the stupid ghost story...

i wont be scared if u dont tell mi abt it.. once u tell mi and i know.. i will hell of scared can?? ... and YESH.... i manange to freak out my preceptor..!!! muahahaha...

the world is so small.. i found out.. my preceptor.. and Edmund Khung... are classmate~~~ LOLX...

k... enough of my workplace... guess. not many ppl know. LOLx.. i'll be going to Australia Queensland , Gold Coast to study this july~~

yeha.. nv imagine myself going there... though.. elizibirth , ash are going... i really really wish and hope yuyu and go.. buddha pls help... i relaly hope yuyu can go~~ :)....

then we can study , go sch , shop, cook ,, play talk craps.. all day,., muhahaha....

and.. i will be spending y 21st bday in Aus... arghh... yuyu pls go.. so u can celebrate w mi yr bday there too..Muhahaha

k... notting much.. LOLx..

ohh i was playing online mahjong w raymond tt day .. was kinda fun... and the best part is.. mi and him was on the phone talking while playing the mahjong.. and ... WE STILL LOSE~~~... holy shit.. lolx...

damn funny..and raymond.. u know why u won 2 times?? coz.. I GAVE U WIN!!!!!... if not i would hav more money and XP then u... hmp..... LOLX~~~

anyway ... notting much though.. jus cant wait till next friday come.. :) already planned what to wear already.. lolx..

and was talking online w yuyu yesterday what to where..where we suspose to go..we talk until as if.. tomolo is the actual day.~~~ LOLX~~ 

k.. notting much,... happy mi~~ :)

May all my friends be well and happy :)

Buddha Bless

k.. been working night shifts... today will be my last night~~ wEE~~~

all i can say i dont know why .. i will be wide awake the whole night.. doing my stuff~~.. coz.. its super the super busy...

and i finally realise how people can pee so much in the night~~

its super irritaitng...

during my 1st night on thursday... i tell u .. it was HELL~~... i start work at 9pm.. and i stand and run non-stop here and thre.. all the way unitl 1 plus in the night~~...

and,... after tt... the stupid patient... calling every 30 mins..to pee... and i walk to and fro to and fro.. irritated...

so yesterday night was better alittle... mange to sit down at 11+ 12... however... jus as i sit down and wanna write my stuff... SIster ask mi to go for break... what the ... LOLx..

kk.... been a busy ward.. these days.. i hope tonight will be a more slacker night~~ :)

I REALLY HOPE!!!!... coz... its super busy...

i leanr how to write in the DARK~~.. LOLx.. coz..,.. i cant on the lights.. LOLX~~

anyway... really tired... and i dont knwo why.. i wanna sleep till 5+pm.. and always 4+pm.. ppl will call mi ... IRrritaiting... and i cant get back to sleep..

i;ve been thinking what to eat for my breakfast.. everymorning...

shiok... buti i;m jus alert and not tired at all the whole night~~ :)

k.. last night liao~~ WEE~~~... will be working night next week also .. :) and no more nights for mi liao~~ :)

k.. ppl all at sentosa.. and i'm unable to make it.. :( ... hai~~

k.. feel like eatng sushi for my supper~~ hehehhe...

gtg bye~~

vonvon.. dont be too upset abt it yah?? u will be strong~~

and i miss my classmates badly :(

may all my friends be well and happy :)

buddha bless

i felt so sorry for some one..

he thinks i nv did tt..

i'm sorry i did ask my sister.. and the fact is.. she didnt even know what the issue we were saying abt...

and... ofcoz.. she will be blur...are u the 1st time seeing her being blurred??

nvm... what i've said i've already said.. i dont think u hav come to know yr wrongs

and.. smsing such things to a friend.. is such an irritating and heartless things to do..

i nv expect such sms to come from u....i Nv expect such WORDS u use to DISSCRIBE yr close friend who u said we disapoint u...

what if we are the one who you such hurting words to discribe abt u like tt.. would u be happy?? * i think u will be on fire*

u said we dissapoint u?? i think u dissapoint us more...

hav u ever take us as a frienD?? a true friend dont say such hurting words  to them...

i dont think i hav EVER said such things abt my close friends b4..

i thought tt.. mi crying alone is bad enough already ...

having to hurt another one of us... is twice as bad...

once... twice... third time... is enough...

maybe.. we dont know u deep enough...

maybe.. this is the REAL u ...

yeah... so long nv blog le~~ hahaha

von von.. not tt i dont wanna blog... is becoz..... becoz..... hahah tired la.. then lazy to blog.. hehehe

k.. notting much.. been working like ... normal days lor!! lOLx..

i jus dont like working in high dependency... coz... all the pt.. ened to be spongue... and its so troublesome la...

i prefer taking care of general ward patients...:)

and the world is super small can...

i was jua like talking to my patient.. and i found out tt his wife is my granny's best friend.. always talk on the phone.. always go out...  -_-''... super small world..

and everyday .. he will like.. i got go to work anot ... LOLX... super funny... and when he sees mi he will shout.. " eh.. ZEYAN!! "

malu.. LOLx... he's nice though.. heheh..

k... notting much.. starting my night shift soon.. i jus lucky tt i had Fiona to be w mi during my night shift.. coz.. i am w some irritating SN...... arghh.. jus hope times fly quickly... and i will pray hard.. i jus do my part well.. and things well.. so i wont get any scolding from her....

i'm so sorry i READ the UNEDITED part.. too late...

k... abt the inccident tt some ppl are talkign abt... all i hav to say is... u think tt ppl ant matured to u rite?? okay then... if u think tt we ant matured to u.. then why dont u think u are so childish to think this way??

i'm so sorry i READ the UNEDITED part.. too late...

if u wanna question ppl abt their answers... then... pls choose to believe them,.. and not by saying they are LIERS or whatever shit...

if u dont trust what ever ppl say... then what ever tt person say is pointless.. WHAT THE POINT OF ASKING!!

and asking the wrong person.. is dumb!!... u link yr thoughts.. and each and every person u've ask.. and u think u came out w a solution??

come on la..... u think everything u predic and think its correct??

have u ever though tt what u said will hurt other feelings?? when.. the REAL fact is not what u though so.. coz.. u PREDIC yr own thought...and whatever ppl say is USEless to u??

u should know yrself best... if until now.. u dont know what and how yr thinking is always like.. then what i can say is.. sorry  for u...

i know now i writing this u mus be freaking pissed OFf by it... but u know what... u hav hurt us many many times.!!.... and u didnt know how hurting it can be... u know how many times we cried becoz of what u said?? u dont know!!!...

u surely will say... we are jus saying our own reasons out... fine... coz u know why?? watever we say .. u will jus take it tt i am jus lieing to myself ...

i am a lier... saying tt to a friend hurts it u know?? i am saying it ONE LAST TIME " whatever i said to u .. and to everyone who ask mi was the same.. i didnt LIE abt anything...!! "

if u still dont believe.. then whatever...i cant say much too

u know how many times.. the things u said.. hurt ppl ... and they cry ... becoz of it?? ofcoz.. u wont know... coz.. we dont cry in front of u...

anyway.. if u keep on thinking and saying it tt way.....we've notting to say ...say mi as much as u want ba... coz.. i'm not going to care abt it anymore...

hahah kk.. i know i very long nv blog... but what to do .. keep on workin!!! LOLX..

i worked 9 days straight in a role without any off days...

super irritaitng and tiring..

also already used to the lonelyness... of working alone.. i mean .. mi onli student at work!!!...

nvm... LOLx... k.. talked abt camp... which was like.. ehh.. last last week?? LOLX...

a injuried camp .. tts all i can say...

Day 1 of camp i trip coz.. i miss a steps in the drain .. and i fell...and did lots of stun... coz.. i dont wanan land on the floor.. coz.. its wet... i really did alot of stun... and... i did it in front of alot of ppl... siting there tieing water bombs... so malu.. LOLx...its was already a sign of warning... but i didnt knw.. LOLX...

DAY 2 of camp... we played in the rain...and it was rainig heavily.. but we didnt care... each and everyone of us were being carried.. out.. to the rain.. and water is being poured on u... plus the rain water.. and pearly fits well inside the drain!! LOLX... thoese sway one... ehh... they go in the mud... and thoese even sway being pushed down the hill  puddle of water.. with grass and mud...LOLx

and while all this playing in the rain happened... i got lots of cuts of my toe.. thankz to vic tan's toe nailS!!...

and... i slipped and fell while walking down the stairsand landed on my tailbone and my scaccral bone...the stairs is made of concrede... super pain la!!... ting saw mi though.. and she was like " OH my god".... lolx... pain pain... SWAY!!

Day 3 of camp .... during the war game... i wanted to rush out.. and i stepped on the piece of wood , tripped and fell.... then... when i stood up... i stepped on a branch..... which poked my feet... HOLY SHIT LA!!.. sway to the max...

so.. i went back after campfire.. coz.. i had work the next day .. and.. while at work.. i was like a walking zombie.. and i had no strength at all!!! loLX...

<< END of story >>

yuppie.. hav been working on christmas eve... christmas day... super boring la!!!... the ward is super quiet...and ofcoz... we order mac breakfast... kfc... pizza hut to eat during our work shift.. coz.. notting much to do in teh ward though.. muahahah..

today ... had some fire drill exercise... i tell u .. its super stupid!!...

ward sister : * look at mi * " student .. u morning rite.?? "

mi : " yah "

ward sister : " u know what to do rite later?? fire drill?? "

mi : " run?? "

ward sister : " turn her head away.. "

hahaa.. what u wanna mi to say sia... fire run la!!.. LOLx..

then i was asking the SN in the doctor room.. w this dont know come from where la the doc...

Mi : " eh.. jus now sister tell mi fire do what.. i tell her run leh... then she dont wanna care mi "

SN : * laughing away*...

Doc : * laughing and turn to look at mi * " u see sister run.. then u follow la.. then u trip and let her fall down... "

mi : " -_-''' "

i think the doc wanna mi to fail my posting!!.. LOLx.. tt sister who talk to mi is the Senior nurse manager lor... wanna mi to die issit!!...

anyway.. i think its dumb!!!.. u know fire.. u should mind yr own safty 1st rite?? for us.. we mus save patient 1st... and sister was like saying.. we mus know wheres the fire... and push all the patient.. thoese on trolley push .. thoese on wheel chair go... * as if so many wheelchair at e ward* ... then if going down sthe stairs... carry the patient...

WTH!!!... carry them.. i dont even hav stregth sia... hai!!.. so sad... to be a nurse!! LOLx..

and how to push all the patient sia... u know.. my ward super big?? consist of A station ( A classs and B1 patient ) , Central station ( high dependency  and normal cubicals ) , and B2 station  ... so total around 60 to 70+ beds.. in total!!!

how to push all sia!!.. MAD!!.. maddness!!!

anyway.. the alarm was super loud and irritating!! 

k... tired.. tomolo QGY... yeah~!~! :)

i was stupid to cut my hair.. why i so stupid.. i dont knw.. coz.. i think i look uglY!!.. LOLX!!.. i am though.. muhaha.. k.. i mad liao.. tired.. wanna sleep.. cya!

may all my friends be well and happy :)

Buddha  bless  

alrite... k... i know its been very very long since i last bloggeD!!.. LOLX... who cares... coz.. i am super busy .. w my stupid attachment...

i;ve been working 8 days straight.. and tomolo is my last day of working.. b4 i hav my off.. so in total... i work 9 days straight without having my off day!!!

and .. my legs.. are jus ... breaking!!...

really super dooper.. tiring.. u know!! hai~!~... and my off day and rest day .. and i am going for SBM camp..~!~ oh my.. bless mi man!! LOLx...hope i can wake up in the morningS!!!...

k...i;ve been working sat and sun.. for the past 2 weeks..~!~1 and .. i suspect next week sat and sun i am also working! super idiot sia!!..

okay.. wokring on sunday AFTERNOON... is super boring k!!... i also think it depends on who u are working w on tt shifT!!...

my 1st sun shift.. was super dooper extra.. boring...coz.. got  a nurse i dont like her.. super stuck up face.. ASS!!.. LOLx..

so.. last sunday was super fun.. LOLx.. ehh.. we spent the whole day talking abt craps... talking abt everything under the sun... talking abt going KTV together!!... cracking jokes... and ordering Macdonal and eat!! muhahah

k.. i am lucky to hav... Ismail as my preceptor.. and nasri as my aSSisstant preceptor.. muhahah.. no la.. his my friends' preceptor.. but... i keep on following his shift.. then he thought i am his preceptee.. muhahaa...

but he really teach mi alot though~!~.. nice person who love to sings song ( irritating)....  lolX!!

so far.. ward... at time... really notting to do.. i MEAN NOTTING!!...lolx!!...

i can hav 1 patient for 2 days... *touch Wood*...coz... if busy really damn busy..LOLx...

staff there are nice~!~!... have 5 sister in the ward...oh my.... lucky their good~! hehehe...

k.. let mi say smoethign tt i am happy!!... I PASS MY DRIVING TEST~!~!....

muhaha... k.. but my parking sucks totally... and i think daddy wont allow mi to drive alone in the road...without him or my mother or my bro by my side!!...

and ... isitll can judge well and see well in the night.. espically in the highway.. super scared... as u know... i... got phobia.. LOLX!!...

my bro alwasy speed his car... drive fast fast .. go very close to cars... then when i was driving.. u should see his face... haha : " DOnt go too near.. stop stop STOP!!!.. very near leh.. dont go so near.."..

muhaha.. and say really.. i wasnt near.!! LOLX!!!...

k.. my parking sucks.. totally.. so cant really go out also.. coz.. cant park!! muhaha...

shhhhh.... i will practice!!

so those who wanna sit my car ride.. mus prepare ar!!muhahah..

k.. no time.. tomolo morning shift.. and i havent prepare my stuff for camp~!` muhaha... go prepare~!~ nite nite~!

k .. today was on afternoon shif.. however.. i was force to go home.. coz... i cant even stand properly... walk properly... and i vomited...

sucks... i hate it... k!!

and was force to go see doc.. which cost mi $12.75.... jus for tt 2 meds... and the consultation feeeof ?$10.... when she nv consult mi anything.. but mostly asking mi stupid quesions...

and so... i came home..

i really dont know my father at times... he really pised mi off more and more..

when i keep watching tv.. he will scold mi for watching tv non-stop..

and so i go and use the computer... and i use computer to watch my movies and play games.. he will complain saying i keep playing computer..

what the hell u wanna mi to do??

and so... yah i asked to buy a own laptop for my own.. and he DISAGREE firmly.. saying.. why u need a laptop.. u hav the main COMPUTER and kor kor's lappy...

1st...kor's lappy sometime he wanna use la.. then spoil la.. he told mi to updat my stuff for 1 month ago... and i update my stuff 1 month ago... until few days ago then he reformate the com..sucks rite.!! VERY...

and like jus now.. i wanna use the MAin COM... and daddy is using.. i tell him i wanna use.. many times..

he looked at mi and say .. : " i wanna do my stuff.!"

i say u can use yr company lappy rite??

he say CANNOT use!!

WTH...

then he added on.. " u use computer for what .. onli watch movie and play games.. i got work to do.. "

FINE!!!>. go do yr work.. then i sit there watch tv.. u grumble... what u wanna mi to do.. u tell mi?? go and sleep?

k... angry w him telling mi this .. is it and watch tv .. AS HE WISH!!!... and then come my granny...

everything she found in her room... she will immediatelty thinks.. " ITS ZEYANs THINGS"

and she will com and find mi and call mine name...

hey whats the problem with this ppl man.. i really dont get it..

and u know my granny still  can say ...

" mus ask ma.. ask if its yrs.. "

then i say " why u dont ask jie jie?? why u come ask mi onli leh ?? "

she keep quiet.... 4ever like this!!.. i hate it.. not becoz i dont like talking to her.. coz.. she everything also come and find mi.. I MEAN EVERYTHING!!!

even if its not mine.. she also fnd mi... wont find others... and she dont ask in a nice way k.. she will come screaming yr name!!!...and blaming u first..

REALLY AR.. i going CRAzy soon...

what they wanna mi to do??

frm now on.. i will do what i think i will do...i am not going to care abt their feelings.. coz.. they nv ever though of mine..

 i am super angry and sad now.. notting to say....

ppl always and use to say .. being the smallest child in the family is the most xin fu one... but.. i dont think so...

i now so feel like staying in my ah ma house.. whereby.. my ah ma will treat mi .. 100 times better then my granny...

i miss my ah ma...

yeah... now i writing this blog... ting is on the plane... ging off on the way to hongkong...:( ... going to miss her though.. hehehe...

she promise to hav a movie date w us... and i will make sure she does it.. muhaha...

yana flew back to indo today too... :( miss her too..

yeah.. workign life.. hai~!... LOLx..

yesterday sat .. went to work in the morning.. and the whole day i didnt felt it was a saturday ... i felt it was friday.. loLX...

and... there was the SN kanna scolding by everyone.. i mean everyone!!!..she was morning shift..kanna scolding by almost everyone... afternoon shift took over.. and all scolded her.. even the sister. omb...

and the worse is.. infont of we student... its like.. so embarressing lor.!~!.. hai~!~!

jus like what Nasri said.. working life and workign as a student is totally different...

when u are a student.. a little mistake ppl wuill forgive u... however .. when u are really workign.. u are expected to know everything!!.. a little mistake.. arrows will be flying towards u...

i think tts a step eveyone has to move on....

after seeing.. tt SN getting scolding... omb.. i really felt... and started thinking.. what if i Grad and really working as an SN i become like this how... ?? hai~!~!... i know i think to much ..

k.. working life... notting mcuh though.. LOLx..

tomolo i am finally going to follow my preceptor...

but ... i was like telling my friend... ehh.. how am i going to open my mouth and tell..

" ehh.. halo... i am yr preceptee??"

wah lau .. super embarressing la...

nvm.. i thnk my frined.. pui san will help mi though.. coz.. her preceptor is on night shift.. so she will be following mine!! muhahaha... we shall see how things goes...

maybe... he didnt even know he hav a preceptee.. Lolx.. shall see~!~1

k.. next sunday i will be workign all by myself...

central will hav no other student on tt day working..e xcept for mi!!...

and... i already suspect it will be a boring day.. with notting much to do.. * cross-fingers*... high dependency ward no inter-ward transfer... so i shalll do my drug guide.. this sunday!!...

super sian la.. go break yrself... trying to find things to do yrself!!... ass!!...

anyawy... 2 weeks down...10 more weeks to my graduation !!! :)

all my nursing friends..jia you~!~! yeah yeah yeah~!!~

looking forward for feb 1... :)

k.. notting much.. wanna slack the whole day at home...

May all my friends be well and happy :)

Buddha bless